It’s time, the dusks sets in
I shall leave now, soon it will be the last ray of the sun caressing my glacial willow skin.
I shall leave now, I don’t wanna be cold. So I mark my way to the chalet before the shadows of the woods linger upon me.
Although I don’t quite know why is it so, I feel I have been here for a long time. it’s like a glitch fondling over my reality.
Plunging me through space, every time I see myself standing near the hearthside,
Wide awaken, existing in time.
Yet I let myself slip into the lucid dreams, not sure of the reality I breathe in or the life I behold! … Shh. I think I heard your footsteps from the front yard. Only to find my being fade away… the closer it got.
My soul drifts, like a kid swinging by the tree. Under the pale moonlight, I swing past the memories and dive into the envision of possibilities.
Again, I know nothing of my presence. All I could do was wait for you by the table at the supper and you didn’t even see me!?
I screamed in silence, followed you to the bed “missing supper again? love”.
The silence prevailed and so my blaming self, “maybe it’s me like I’d always say”.
I see you strip gently in your bare soft skin and tuck yourself in the red sweater I got you. I know I couldn’t but I wanted to feel you under the night-sky of all our broken dreams.
I couldn’t take this anymore. I hauled
Please for god’s sake!
See me, I am right here
to the side of the bed, you haven’t looked all these years.
I am on my knees! begging for your one glance.
Your footstep took a pause…
not for me but the silly keys you have always forgotten.
I smiled with a wept eye, and wish you had not left me alone that night…or this night? I don’t know.
But with a thud, you’d leave the door wide-shut!
You see, I still don’t know is this reality? or is it just me? Why did I love you so much? That now I can’t just leave.
I fought with me a little too much, poured a glass of wine, and cried myself to sleep, near the flames, to be warm. As you left me cold as ice on an autumn’s eve.
I wish you haven’t left me alone that night with broken promises and our wrecking love.
Doesn’t matter now, the time has come, I should wake up. It’s the flames, they got too closer. I tried stepping away, but it was too late. you weren’t home yet. It was too late.
Now comes the worst part of it all, our ‘ neighbors knocked’
I wish I had the strength to open, but my heart was too heavy, it drowned me to death.
I was long gone in the breeze as I opened the door.
“ I am sorry” they wept.
It’s your husband they said.
“ I am sorry”
I wake up once again, it’s time now the dusks sets in and the last of the sun’s ray caressed my glacial willow skin.
Now comes the worst part of it all, our ‘ neighbors knocked’
I wish I had the strength to open, but my heart was too heavy, it drowned me to death.
I was long gone in the breeze as I opened the door.
“ I am sorry” they wept.
It’s your husband they said.
“ I am sorry”
I wake up once again, it’s time now the dusks sets in and the last of the sun’s ray caressed my glacial willow skin.
